This is my plan. I will write posts as I have the time and inspiration. And then I will save them as drafts and space out the actual posting. If I can maintain my discipline I should have a handful of posts in draft form available at anytime. So, maybe, more regular posting ahead.
Let's talk about Valentine.
Mine was not too bad :) One of my relatives from Sydney came to Perth. We truly haven't met for ages and so it was nice spending this summer holiday catching up outdated news with her. We had packed plans to go over 4 days. First, we stepped to shopping centers and you can say that we were really big spenders on sale items. Do I need to save up? I DO!
Then, we hunted heaps of good food, like literally heaps of goood food. Uh oh! I become a paranoid these days every time I see weight scales... pooh! My breathing slows down as I listen to my heart pounding in my ears. Is that a paradox of some kind? Really, it's just a sign of overeating.This is exactly what I'm doing as I write down these words: "Dear body, I am sorry I have taken in so much sugar, carbs, and fat. The diet starts February 20th. Mark my words!"
Well, that's about it.
Suddenly, I realized there was something missing. Where's the love? Isn't valentine about chocolate, flowers, love letter, teddy bear, candle light dinner, and all sweet romantic stuff? Honestly, I'm in the I'm-confused-does-love-actually-exist state of mind, wondering whether I can grip on to some sort of silly happiness in being able to love without hurting. I know it's a silly thought and all I could say is love is nothing easy.
It took me a couple hours having me-time and adapting the new way of seeing how's love worth the pain. So, below is what inside my head right now, you may agree or disagree. No offense. I'm just saying.
You are in this world to love someone and your job is to find that someone, love them until you can not feel anything anymore, love them until you don't care about the pain. Because it's worth fighting for. It's worth the time. It's worth crying for. It's worth giving in every piece of dignity you have. Even if it makes you look like a weirdo in everyone else's eyes. Who cares?! Everyone is somebody's weirdo, isn't it?
And listen! don't ever ever ever jump into conclusion in the first place about what everyone tell you about your someone or what they make you feel. Because in the end, it's not about them, but you and your someone and we all go through the same thing. We love and hurt. We live and die.
And when I say love, it doesn't mean "I love you, let see how it goes for tomorrow!" or "I love you if only....." or "I love you but...." You must never expect anything in return if you love (you might hear about this before) because when you love them with unconditional love and it comes to a failure you will simply smile and say, "Nice try". No regret in loving someone the best way you can. Trust me!
Another thing is learn to let go and move on. Never hope for love to vanish. Because I tell you, it won't. When you love someone, it will never go away. It will just fade. There will always be a little piece of your heart that will yearn for him. You can not make it go away. Learn to remember the good things that you've shared with him, even if it's not mutual. Maybe the way he smells, the way he look when he's happy, the way he smiles, the way he laughs, the way he walks, the way he talks, the way he says hello, and the way he says good night. Because in the end, it's always the good things that matter. And when you learn to face rejection, lose and pain with dignity and grace, it will indeed make you grow stronger and you end up being complete.
Wiw, long post alert is on!
Of these, I want to encourage you to never give up on love. Because every second is one you'll never get back and happy ending does exists. Ciao! ^^
