First Draft

Beautiful eyes beautiful cries.
No more beautiful lies.

I'll let you be my life ..
So I can buy you a beautiful ice.

I've been working on a couple songs these past few days. Feeling inspired (ahm)! I was trying to create something that a lot of ladies can relate to. Well, It is not a topic that I'm going through at the moment, but I can say I've been there , done that, and moved on.

Hello la la ladies! Never lose yourselves to any man, or anyone!

Thoughtfully yours,

What now?

I am struggling to get stuff to write and staying motivated to type even a few sentences for my few readers to have something to read.

I am not giving up just yet. I am just in a horrible funk.

I'll try again tomorrow *finger crossed*

Good night world! God bless :)

Happy Father's Day, Dad!

Papi, I want to tell you so many things, that if I haven’t told you all this before, I’m saying it now…

Thank you for being such a great father.
Thank you for teaching me how to ride bicycle. You cried with me, every time I fell yet I’m still struggling to fight the fear of falling :P
Thank you for teaching me how to use chopsticks.
Thank you for switching off my light every night and for the good night kiss.
Thank you for bringing me light food every day, you know how I love them, much!
Thank you for taking me to the church. You said you want me to grow beautifully in Christ and that creates me what I am today.
Thank you for always reminding me to get my vitamin every morning and answer all the silly questions I asked about it.
Thank you for buying me a piano and always supporting me to practice hardly. I have no regret dad!
Thank you for calling and messaging me every morning and night to tell me you love and miss your little girl.
Thank you for not getting mad when I ruined the car’s bumper.
Thank you for being strict to me when I need it.
Thank you for buying me dresses even though you know how full my wardrobe is.
Thank you for saying sorry when you did wrong. You amazed me.
Thank you for coming to my concert while you supposed to get rest after working the whole day. The time you made for me is very highly appreciated.
Thank you for sending me money to buy red lipsticks, although mom thought I was too young. I was 8 years old dad.
Thank you for taking care of me when I got my teeth taken out. You were an angel and put up with my crying moments.
Thank you for not letting me give up 48 hours before the deadline of when my enrollment was due. Do you remember that weekend? When I broke down and said I was afraid I’d be rejected. You called them up the next day.
Thank you for not getting upset for the times I came to Perth. I know you wished for me to go back very often. I’m working on my degree and I will make you proud. Promise!
Thank you for all our daddy-daughter dates. I have a list of them.
Thank you for all the advice about life and repeating it over and over again. It sticks in my head.
Thank you for being my rock, when I needed you the most.
Thank you for supporting every decision I have made. Good or bad.
Thanks for your advice, support, help, smile, hug, care, kiss and love.
Thank you for staying up until 4am accompanying me study. Many times! And you brought me fruits and candies. Great times.
Thank you for believing in me to do things I have never done before and encouraging me every time I fail.
Thank you for texting me funny jokes daily. You always make my day.
Thank you for picking up my phone during working hours and taking all the time to have important conversations about all my ramblings and worries.
Thank you for always putting us first, even when work is so busy.
Thank you for loving mom so much. I know she loves you too.
Thank you for your hard work and providing for our family.
Thank you for teaching me to laugh at life and have fun.
Thank you for being so proud of me and telling everyone. I know I’ll always be your super girl.
Thank you for everything.

You are one of the very greatest gifts God gave to me. I love you so much, dad.



Missing you,
h.

7 pm

I like sitting in this little seat, listening to my little music (Come Away With Me-Norah Jones), watching the world blows by in such a hazy blur, as I contemplate why time flies so fast, except when I’m sitting here, enjoying my rare moments of being alone and at peace.

Today, my sister and I had some chat over the phone. This is just the courtesy of conversation with her.

Me: We never thought we would be this jaded and cold until it happened. Even after realizing that it’s likely you’re in love with a certain person and think s/he is the one, then something changed your mind, it’s more like.. Eh, another one bites the dust. And you have to move on.

Sis: It’s kinda sad, but at the same time, I guess it’s just our mind’s way of trying to keep us from getting so burned. You have to check your heart, it wouldn’t be easy but once you’ve done with the feeling you will be able to see what exactly God’s plan in the journey. Even if he’s not meant to be yours, at least you have created something in his life.

Me: Yep, couldn’t agree more. But now, I don’t even know I fall more in love with the idea of a person than with the person themselves or I fall in love with the idea of being in love. Or I just don’t know how to be in love. Silly me.

My heart hasn’t quite figured out yet what I suppose to do seriously.

I learned a long time ago that sometimes love just isn’t enough. Still, I need to believe that love matters, even if it’s not enough to hold together.

But you’re right. Someday, maybe I’ll be able to look back and remember that I once cared about that person without regret of giving my best. Well, It’s going to be a while before that happens though, because right now, my mind hasn't understood yet that if my heart is telling me to keep going on why is he still there? It's still breathing for him and getting worse.

Sis: Such a long process to reach maturity, and so is love, dear.

Thanks sis for slowing down my life, for a split second.

Fighting off a sore throat today.. Sing along with me!

Come away with me and we’ll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I’ll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I’m safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me

Come away with me, Norah Jones